Monday, November 30, 2009

Warning: Thanksgiving Vacation Can Be Harmful to Your Regular Life

It's a dangerous, dangerous thing to take several days off of work to gallivant around with your whole entire family seeing movies, eating fattening cookies and meals, staying up late, and taking naps whenever the mood strikes.

You won't know it's a dangerous thing until you get up on Monday morning with your regular life staring you in the face. Suddenly your regular life doesn't seem fair. (And then you curse Paris Hilton because her regular life looks like your holiday life. Plus, she's skinny.)

It was so good to be with almost everybody (missed you, Ashley!). We spent a couple of days with Ryan's family and then we joined my family up at a cabin where we all stayed together for a few days. We walked in the door and I swear I didn't see my kids again until we loaded in the car to head to the airport. They were swallowed up in cousins.

Today I worked and worked and worked (with more work to go) and found myself missing my Thanksgiving Vacation life, so I'm going to take a minute and live vicariously through my memories.

Some things I don't want to forget in no particular order:

The fluffiness of the biscuits at Ruth's Diner.
When my niece Leslie said, "It smells like burps out here." (And it did!)
Shopping with the girls.
Sitting up late talking in the hotel lobby with Val and Heidi and girls.
How funny and cute my kids look going through airport security.
Sitting on the couch talking with my dad.
Taking a nap in the middle of the day.
Taste-testing popcorn and hot chocolate.
Seeing Christian as an adolescent for the first time.
The background sound of my brothers playing guitar.
The family talent show and my nephew Sam's amazing, manly voice.
My nephew Christopher--everything about him.
Max playing with his cousin Ben from sun up until sun down.
Preparing our Thanksgiving meal with everybody.
Driving down the canyon to see my parent's new house.
Listening to James read my bookus (think fetus) to some of the group.
Taking a family picture at Silver Lake, one of my favorite places on earth.
Max making funny faces in the pictures.
Losing miserably at Bananagrams over and over and over again.
Having my niece Sydney do my makeup.
A quiet cabin while most of the family went to a movie.
Realizing that I'm either too old or too tired to do Black Friday shopping.
Quality time with some of my favorite people on earth.
A smooth flight home.

I hope your Thanksgiving was equally wonderful and my condolences on your return to regular life.

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

I'm Blogging From Space!

I'm in the air right now, 30,000 feet up or so, which might as well be space. I know that this kind of technology is not impressive to most people, but it kind of gives me the giggles.

Monday, November 23, 2009

Have I Told You Lately That I Love You?

I have so much to be thankful for this year, not the least of which is 1) that my toenail fungus has finally been cured and 2) that you nice folks are still reading this silly little blog.

I don't say it enough, but I'm sincerely thankful that you stop by to read. It means a lot to me. It baffles me and thrills me at the same time. Thank you.

I'm heading out this week to spend the holiday with our families, but before I go, I want to give you this Thanksgiving wish:

May your turkey be perfection.
May your potatoes be fluffy.
May your gravy be devoid of lumps.
May you get the helping of green bean casserole with the most crunchy onions on top.
May you be surrounded with loved ones and laughter.
And extra dinner rolls. 
May you be surrounded by a lot of extra dinner rolls.
May your heart be as full as your stomach.
May your sadness heal.
May your joy reproduce like rabbits.
May your worries be few.
May you be lucky in love.
May you have Jell-O with cottage cheese and pineapple.
May you be graduated from the kid table.
May your football team win.
May your slice of pie be bigger than average.
May you get your share of hugs.
May your afternoon nap be filled with happy dreams.
May you feel peace.
May you be the first in line at all the Black Friday sales.
And may you remember where you parked.

 Happy Thanksgiving, everybody! 

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Gray Skies and Lunch Escapes and Fast Food Bigotry

It's cold in the house today, even though it's supposed to be the warmest day of the week. It's a glum, gray sky out there, hiding the sun and starving the dog of patches of warm carpet to lie in. I woke up this morning and looked out the window to see only branches on the trees. The leaves have all gone south for the winter. I realized yesterday that my tan lines are gone too. Faded away. It's winter skin now.


Ryan worked from home today, so we went to Taco Bell for lunch. The drive-thru lady recognized us. Maybe because we ate dinner there last night. And lunch on Tuesday.

She's a very efficient drive-thru worker--all business--repeating your order and asking after every pause if there will be anything else. She has a magnificent accent, very Rosie Perez, and I always try to impersonate her after we drive away with our bean burritos, soft and crunchy tacos, all fresco style.  I haven't been to every Taco Bell in the nation, but I'm still going to say this: our Taco Bell is the best Taco Bell in the nation, possibly the world. Everything is just as it should be--the meat is meaty, the beans are bean-y, the soft tortillas are soft, and the crunchy tacos are so tasty, I'd be willing to pay $1.29 for them if they asked.

I'm a little embarrassed that Rosie Perez recognized us, but not so embarrassed that I won't go there tomorrow if the mood strikes. I'm not ashamed of my Taco Bell habit. Did I mention that it's the best Taco Bell in the universe?

Ryan and I used to escape high school for lunch. We'd take our allotted lunch money (about two bucks each) and drive to McDonalds for cheeseburgers or McChicken sandwiches. One day the drive-thru lady said, "See you tomorrow!" We laughed for months.

I guess some things never change.

The best Taco Bell in the nation is also a Kentucky Fried Chicken restaurant, which used to bother me immensely. I remember the first time I saw a hybrid Taco Bell/KFC. It just seemed so....unnatural. I kept imagining the kitchen stocked with packets of honey butter and fire sauce. I imagined Colonel Sanders in a sombrero and he looked pained, ridiculous, confused. I turned up my nose and kept my distance. I was a fast food bigot, I guess. As much as I loved Taco Bell and KFC, I just couldn't accept them...{hard swallow}...together.

When it came right down to it, why did I care if the cole slaw was in the same refrigerator as the pico de gallo? Why shouldn't the eleven herbs and spices that coat my favorite drumsticks hang out with the cinnamon and sugar that coat my favorite cinnamon twists? Why can't buttermilk biscuits and gorditas be friends?

You see, we don't know our own biases until we are faced with them.

Eventually, I gained maturity and perspective. It happened one day in the car when we were grabbing a bite to eat before one of Christian's games on a busy Saturday. Two people in the car wanted Taco Bell and two people wanted KFC, but we only had time to stop at one drive-thru. It was a moment of real drama. I had to put aside my fears that the gravy ladle was also the bean ladle. I had to challenge my beliefs and admit that a taco in a paper bucket is still a taco.

We ate our lunch that day, each satisfied with our respective tastes of old Kentucky and old Mexico, and I guess you could say that I only forgot to order one thing: humble pie. But then I remembered that it's McDonalds that sells those.

It's a complicated life, that's for sure, but it's a good one. I think I'll discuss it with Rosie Perez tonight at the drive-thru.

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Video Games: Your Opinion, Please

I have a question for you parents out there, and I really hope you'll share your honest opinion on the matter because I am sincerely interested in what you have to say.

The topic today is video games. In my highly scientific observations of other parents (peeking in windows and tapping phone conversations), I've found that there is a wide range of standards when it comes to the matter of what is and what is not okay for their youngsters to be playing. Now, I have my own ideas on the subject (and maybe I'll share them later), but I'm curious about yours. I'd love it if you would share your opinion on the following questions:

1. Do you monitor which video games your child plays?
2a. If you do, what is your protocol for allowing or denying a certain video game?
2b. If you take a more relaxed, permissive approach, please explain why.

IMPORTANT NOTE: I am not interested at all in your opinion of other parents and their practices; I want to know how YOU personally make decisions on the matter for your own household. (I reserve the right to delete comments if there's any mud-slinging!)

Oh, and one more thing--anonymous comments ARE allowed, so don't hesitate to offer up your opinion, even if it seems unpopular!

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Welcome to Movie Island!

This is Movie Island. It might look like an inflatable mattress, because that's what it used to be. However, it is no longer an inflatable mattress. It's a magical island where my family gathers to watch movies. But you can only watch one movie on Movie Island before it disappears into a flat, plastic puddle on the carpet. It's very magical.

I bet you're wondering how you can get your own two-hour magical Movie Island. I've put together a short set of do-it-yourself instructions.

1. Purchase an expensive inflatable mattress at Costco with the intent of using it for decades as a spare sleeping option for houseguests.

2. Leave it inflated in a spare basement room after your houseguests leave.

3. Forget about it for a few months.

4. Ask two small children (preferably boys) to use the mattress as an end zone for indoor football.

5. Ignore the sounds of them making dramatic touchdowns, tackles, and fumbles.

6. Repeat steps 3-5.

7. Check on your mattress after several months. It should be listless and whimpering.

8. Fill it up with air and spend several minutes locating and patching the most significant holes. (Don't worry, there are zillions of tiny holes! You only want to patch the big ones.) Oh, and be sure to use some  profanity. (This is all part of the magical process.)

9. You're almost done! Now it's time to test your magical Movie Island to make sure it has been fully transformed and is no longer an inflatable mattress. Fully inflate it and then sleep on it overnight. If you've been successful, you'll wake on the hard ground after only a few hours. (Note: you can ask a houseguest to perform this step for you.) If you wake on a full mattress, I recommend repeating steps 3-5, but with larger children who are holding knives.

10. Congratulations! You have successfully transformed a regular, expensive air mattress into a magical Movie Island for your family to enjoy for the average length of a feature film!

Monday, November 16, 2009

Helping People Find Themselves One Personality Quiz at a Time

I know what you need today. You need to do a little soul-searching. You need to see yourself as you really are. You need a little bit of introspection and understanding. (Don't we all?)

Go here. Go now.

And don't ever suggest that I haven't put my psychology degree to good use!

It's Always Good to Clarify

At Max's demand request, I wrote a short wish list this morning for Christmas. He was reading over my shoulder.

"What does number two say?" he asked.

"A pedicure."

"What's that?"

"That's when you have somebody paint your toenails for you."

I worked at the list some more.

He interrupted. "So, you want, like, a real, entire person?" and he made the hand motions that illustrated gift-wrapping a human being to put under the tree. He even flickered his fingers on top of his head to signify a bow.

"For the pedicure?" I asked.

"Yeah. Do you mean a whole person?"

"No. Just a gift certificate."


Thursday, November 12, 2009

I'm Refusing to Call This Random!

  • The Valentine catalog has begun.
  • And I am waiting for inspiration and motivation.
  • Every hour, on the hour, I send Inspiration and Motivation a text message:
  • Where R U guys? R U coming soon?
  • I think they are mad at me; they never text back.
  • Speaking of texting,
  • It took me a loooooong time to use text-speech, like "R U" and such.
  • It felt like such a betrayal of my english degree.
  • Except that I don't have an english degree.
  • But, I like to pretend I have one.
  • I practically have one.
  • And practically having an english degree is pretty much the same as having one.
  • I actually have a psychology degree.
  • Which is of the same exact value as a practically-had english degree.
  • R U following this?
  • I had my hair done this morning.
  • Blondification of the roots.
  • I am the youngest client of the salon.
  • By about 15 years.
  • Many, many, mature women have sat next to me under the dryers.
  • I didn't realize it until roughly my third visit, when I noticed a place for walker parking.
  • Just kidding, there is no walker parking.
  • They have to keep their walkers with them or they'll fall down.
  • Anyway, today while I was sitting under the dryers reading the AARP magazine, I got to thinking.
  • I thought that maybe the salon should give me a discount for being so young.
  • I mean, they seem really excited to have me as a client.
  • All that walking-on-my-own and everything.
  • I'm less likely to slip and fall in the parking lot and sue them.
  • And I never drink the complimentary water with Metamucil.
  • That's got to count for something!
  • The idea for a discount came because I'm always looking for ways to cut the costs of my hair maintenance.
  • Hair maintenance in the east is much more costly than it was in the west.
  • And I think a junior citizen discount would really help a lot.
  • One more funny thing about the hair salon is that the owner has a crush on my hair.
  • The owner is a very nice gay man.
  • But I'm telling you, he looks at my hair very lustfully.
  • I guess he's not into "straight" hair!
  • ROFL!
  • That reminds me.
  • Do you remember the first time you heard the term LOL?
  • I do.
  • I was instant messaging with a coworker at my old job and I said something funny and he typed back, "LOL."
  • And I was like, lol?
  • Lol?
  • And then I said it out loud, "Lol."
  • But it still didn't make any sense.
  • And then I said it real slow, "Laaaaawwwwwl."
  • But I still didn't get it.
  • So I figured it was a typo.
  • And I felt bad for him because I judge people for typos.
  • And then another day I sent a funny message and another coworker replied with "LOL" and I couldn't take it anymore, so I said, "What does 'LOL' mean?"
  • And then the Cool Police came and took my ID card away.
  • They probably could have predicted then and there that I'd end up patronizing the old bitty salon.
  • "Laugh Out Loud. It means 'Laugh Out Loud.'"
  • That's what my coworker said.
  • And even though I wasn't cool anymore, I was euphoric.
  • Because I had caused someone (two people, actually) to laugh.
  • Out loud.
  • But eventually, the euphoria wore off.
  • Because eventually I came to understand that there is nothing literal about LOL.
  • People are big, fat liars.
  • I see people texting and IMing everywhere I go.
  • But they claim to be!
  • Oh, how they claim to be!
  • And then, as soon as I caught on to this LOL-scheme, they came up with ROFL.
  • (Which I also had to have explained to me.)
  • And I was like, really?
  • You expect me to believe that people are actually rolling around on the floor in a fit of laughter?
  • A phenomenon like that would surely have ended up on the evening news once or twice.
  • "A close call today in a downtown office building where hundreds of employees were found on their cubicle floors rolling around. What was first considered a medical pandemic, turned out to be just a really funny joke."
  • The irony is that the true definition of "ROFL" is probably closer to "LOL."
  • And the true definition of "LOL" is probably closer to "You think you are funny and I'm too nice to argue with you."
  • Do u agree?

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Therapy Daydreams: "I'll just check a book out from the library or something."

We've all got issues, right? I'm one of those people who believes that we could all benefit from some good, old-fashioned, lie-on-the-sofa-and-spill-your-guts therapy. And sometimes, when I'm all up in my face about my own issues, analyzing them with my PhD-in-law (that's a PhD acquired by marriage), I imagine what it would be like to sit on that sofa and share my thoughts. I imagine it would go something like this...

(Hint: If you're reading this through a feed burner, you have to click over to watch the video.)

The ironic thing is, making this robot movie was strangely therapeutic.

Monday, November 9, 2009

How Does Your Graine Compare to Migraine?

I've head some pretty formal headaches in the past, but I think I had my first real, grownup migraine this weekend. I spent the day in bed, wishing for the escape of sleep, but tossing and turning because I kept being awakened by the annoying sound of a distant neighbor using a leaf blower for what seemed like eleven hours. I pulled the covers over my head, relishing in the darkness and muffled sound, but I quickly ran out of oxygen and eventually decided to take them off my head and live. When the leaf blower finally shut off, I was so happy that I almost cried. I laid my weary head on the pillow and tried to fall asleep, but was interrupted again by the sound of grass growing outside on the lawn. When I tuned out the sound of the grass through careful meditation, my ears began throbbing with the loud clash of dust particles hitting each other mid-air. And then, to add insult to injury, I felt a piercing sensation caused by the nails-on-the-chalkboard sound of the cotton balls in the bathroom drawer sitting next to each other in a pile. Light hurt my eyes and vomit threatened to interrupt every shift of my body. Ryan brought me migraine medicine and a drink. Max brought me my giant sunglasses. I wore them in the dark bedroom while I watched Fine Living Network for seven hours straight, composing imaginary hate mail to the cotton balls for their heartless disregard all the while.

Fine living, indeed.

Do you get migraines? What do they feel like to you?

Friday, November 6, 2009

Angsty Birthday Song

Max spontaneously sang this (original) song on the beach over the summer. And, no, it wasn't his birthday, not even close. I dedicate it to my brother James who is turning 30 this weekend. Happy birthday, J.D.! I hope it's not a rip off!

I'm thinking of submitting it to the Friend to be published and used as an alternate birthday song in Primary. What do you think?

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Compliments With a Chance of Meatballs

Yesterday I ran away from my computer. I have to do that sometimes when I fear we are becoming co-dependent. The kids were out of school for an inservice day and the sun was shining, so I gave my computer the cold shoulder and put the kids in the car to run away.

"Where are we going?" they asked from the back seat.
"Somewhere fabulous!" I said.
"Like, where?" they asked with thick skepticism.
"IKEA!" I said with all the enthusiasm of a varsity cheerleader.
The noise from the backseat was a mix between a dying cat and a weary woman in her 73rd hour of labor.
"Oh, come on," I said, "we'll have meatballs. It will be great."

Within a few minutes, we'd struck a somewhat regular deal: if they were patient and long suffering while I shopped, I would take them to their favorite bargain store on the way home for a cheap toy. That's right, I bribe them to shop with me. Don't judge. My diplomatic skills are enviable.

Why was I headed to IKEA? I can't say what the lure is, exactly. I have a very traditional-style home and no need for furniture, but there's something about IKEA that I find very.....alluring. I walk around the showrooms and feel inspired to be more.....I don't know, European? I like walking through the swanky imaginary living rooms and kitchens where my imaginary Swedish friends Sven and Monika live. I ring their imaginary DUURBEL and ask to borrow a cup of SHOOGHRE. And while Sven is off in the kitchen, Monika and I tell each other witty GJOHKKS and compliment each other's SKAARVZ.

IKEA makes me feel bilingual. Plus, I love those meatballs.

The drive took a while and when the sixth indie-folk song played on the stereo, Max made a suggestion from the backseat.

"Let's do compulments instead of listening to music," he said.
"OK, we'll do compliments," I said, turning the music off.

We do on-demand compliment-fests from time to time in our family. It's very a very warm-and-fuzzy activity and the place I first learned that I was considered a "fashionist" by Max, which I believe is a fashionable pacifist. Which is pretty much what I am.

"You go first, Mom." Max said.
"OK, Max," I said, "I like the way you build aircraft carriers out of paper."
"Thanks," he said.
"And, Christian, I like the way that you get up every morning with no complaint. I admire that."
"Um, thanks," said Christian with one headphone in his ear.

"OK, Christian," said Max, "it's your turn to give compulments."
"Um, I don't think I want to play," said Christian as he put both headphones in his ears. Then he pulled one out and said, "Actually, I'll play but I don't want to give any compliments. I just want to get them."

I guffawed.

Ever accommodating, Max agreed to this and gave us each a compliment. I followed his be-the-bigger-man lead and gave them each another compliment. Max took a turn and then must have run out of ideas because he announced that he'd probably prefer to just receive compliments and not give any more.

I guffawed again, but I guess they thought I was coughing.

Suddenly, it became very clear what was happening.  They had the upper hand and they knew it. I was a victim of extortion. First, they wanted cheap toys and now they wanted unlimited compliments, and they knew that I would oblige because I really wanted to go to IKEA and wander the showrooms and eat meatballs with gravy and jam! What was next, I wondered? Cash?

As Sven and Monika would say, I was totally SKKRWD.

Please Tell Me That Big Eighties Hair Is Coming Back

Fingers crossed, people, fingers crossed.

P.S. Just for clarification, I'm not constipated anymore. That look on my face is called "cautiously optimistic."

Monday, November 2, 2009

Wanna Read Part of My Book?

I've mentioned it before, but just in case you're new around here, I'm trying to write a book. And let me tell you a few things I've learned so far:
  1. Writing a book feels kind of like deciding you're going to go out into the backyard and count all the blades of grass and organize them according to height and girth and shade of green. And then ignoring the truth when you know that, realistically, it's probably impossible.
  2. Writing a book makes you intensely interested in other people because you're suddenly a sponge for ideas. I saw a t-shirt over the summer that said, "Careful, or you'll end up in my novel." People of the world, please consider yourself officially forewarned.
  3. I have no idea what I'm doing, but I'm excited to be doing it.
  4. I have no idea where story lines are going, but I'm excited about them.
  5. The more I talk about it and share it with others, the more committed I am to moving it along. I have discovered that I am motivated by accountability and deadlines, so I'm trying to create both as I go. (I am also motivated by pasta and burritos, but I haven't figured out how to incorporate those.)
Since I announced that I was starting a book here on my blog, and because you are so kind and encouraging, I've decided to start posting excerpts here for you to read. I hope you will enjoy them and I hope that I will have many, many more to share with you as this baby of a book gestates full term. I am shutting comments off for this post because I need to practice putting this out there without knowing what people think. I promise that it's not because I'm afraid of critical feedback; I'm more afraid that in this context I would only get positive comments from really nice people and could get a false sense of how it's really being read. So, I'm offering this as a no-strings-attached slice of this book. You can love it or hate it or sort of like it or not care about it and I'll never know. So many of you wonderful souls have told me that you know I can do this, but I need to practice proving that I know I can do this. Does that make sense? (You can't answer that because I shut comments off.) You are, however, welcome to send me pasta or burritos as motivation.

So, here it goes. I don't want to give too much preface, but you should know that this story is being told from the point-of-view of a ten-year-old boy named Clooney. (And just to be safe, you should also know that this is copyrighted and if you copy it or use it in any way, you will be hunted down and prosecuted by my cousin Guido and his baseball bat. Mmmkay?)

An excerpt (isn't "excerpt" a funny word?):

Britt’s funeral was…weird.  First of all, I hated him, and I’m not sure you’re supposed to go to the funerals of your arch enemies.  He used to beat me up every day after school.  One time he kicked me in the back so hard, I peed red.  I didn’t tell my mom because that was during her depressed time, and I couldn’t see how red pee would do anything but make things worse.  I didn’t know what to do, even though I thought about it every night before I went to sleep, and every morning about two minutes after I woke up.  I finally came up with a plan to get a King Cobra snake and keep it in my backpack until after school.  I figured that I could train it to strike my enemies as soon as they began an attack.  I checked out a book on King Cobras from the library and found out within the first few pages that they are not very trainable.  Before I came up with another plan, Britt “dropped over dead.” 

Problem solved.

Our whole entire class went to the funeral together on a Friday morning when we were supposed to be in school.  We got special permission from the principal.  Some of the parents came, but my mom had to work, so I just went along, following behind the others.  My mom made me wear my darkest pair of jeans and a shirt with buttons.  She combed my hair and put gel in it that morning to keep it nice and flat the whole day.  She combed it so carefully, I remember, and then set the comb down and held my face in her hands.

“I’m really sorry about your friend Britt,” she said.  “I know it’s hard to lose somebody.  And if you need to cry or talk about it, you just come to me, okay?”

I hadn’t realized it, but tears were filling up in my eyes, because I was thinking about how I had wanted to cry and talk to her about Britt back when he was beating the crap out of me, but I hadn’t dared to tell her.

She saw my tears and hugged me and held me tight like a cast.  And the tighter she held, the more the tears fell out.  And the more the tears fell out, the more the snot started to run from my nose, but I didn’t even wipe it because I was too busy bawling and wishing I had told her about the red pee.

Finally, she released me and took me by the shoulders, crouching to look in my eyes.

“Oh, honey,” she said, “he was a good friend to you, wasn’t he?”

I looked at the floor.  Then I lied another one of my lies and said yes.

Sunday, November 1, 2009

Random: Sunday Night Edition

  • It's Sunday night.
  • I have Sunday Night Anxiety.
  • Sunday Night Anxiety is when you realize the weekend is almost over and you haven't accomplished much of anything.
  • I'm not sure what I was hoping to accomplish.
  • There are dishes in the sink.
  • I wish I would have accomplished doing the dishes tonight.
  • I also wish that I would have magically finished some work.
  • On Friday night, I always think I'm going to get some work done over the weekend.
  • I rarely get any work done over the weekend.
  • I'm tired.
  • I'm also constipated.
  • I'm never constipated.
  • I pride myself in very regular bowel movements.
  • Raise your hand if you feel uncomfortable right now.
  • Halloween was fun.
  • Max's best friend from school came over to trick-or-treat with us.
  • He is Pakistani.
  • Before he came over, Ryan was asking me about him.
  • "What does he look like?" Ryan asked.
  • "He looks like the Pakistani version of Max," I said.
  • Swap Max's goldilocks for jet black hair and darken his skin tone four or five shades and there you have it.
  • Other than that, they look remarkably alike.
  • Have you ever wondered if you have a Pakistani version of yourself out there?
  • I have.
  • I have also wondered if my Pakistani twin is constipated.
  • I hope she isn't.
  • Constipation feels like hurrying to get into a movie, popcorn in hand, finding a seat, and then waiting for a movie that never starts.
  • I mean, it seems like the movie is going to start, but it never does.
  • Raise your hand if you've had enough metaphors for the day.
  • I'm tired, but I think I already mentioned that.
  • I liked reading the comments on my last post.
  • It got me thinking.
  • I'm not sure I expressed exactly what I wanted to say.
  • I hate that feeling.
  • I trimmed my fingernails today.
  • I like them short.
  • My dad used to trim my fingernails during church with the nail clippers he kept on his key ring.
  • He'd even file them and push back the cuticles.
  • Funny, the memories that stick with you.
  • Sometimes I get overwhelmed being the mom.
  • Like, knowing that toilets wouldn't get flushed without my prompting.
  • Or hands washed.
  • Or teeth brushed.
  • Or baths taken.
  • Or laundry washed.
  • Or bedtime acknowledged.
  • Or homework completed.
  • Or dog let out.
  • I don't like feeling overwhelmed.
  • Especially on a Sunday night.
  • Max needs to go to bed.
  • It's past his bedtime because I am protesting motherhood right now.
  • I've spent the last hour conducting an experiment.
  • To see if he will tuck himself in.
  • My hypothesis was that he wouldn't tuck himself in.
  • And I was exactly right.
  • He's wide awake and drawing a cartoon right now.
  • I have proven a theory: My kids don't fall asleep voluntarily.
  • He needs to go to bed.
  • Even though he doesn't know it.
  • I know it.
  • I guess he needs me.
  • That's not such a bad thing.
  • Goodnight, y'all.
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